God, how much might You ask us to bear?
difficult Biblical Story of Job
recounts a series of monumental afflictions
which are sent to Job to test his will,
but Job is able to resist.
took away from Job's goods, his health,
his wife and childrn. He was left covered
with stores in the midst of his misery,
but he remained loyal to you in unshakable
could endure the plagues and losses that
of us knows how much he can bear?
chronicled, in 2012, the story
of a very accomplished and highly regarded
Washington, DC, physician, father of several
grown children, who found his existence
had become unbearable.
He poisoned his wife
for whom he was caretaker. She was suffering
from advanced Alzheimer's disease.
He then shot himself.
know, but we cannot, whether he acted
in sadness, depression, desperation, pity,
rage, despondence, or all of these emotions,
and or, if he was under the influence
of alcohol or drugs.
people with severe and painful diseases
or disabilities often live out long lives,
enduring difficulties and agony
but soldiering on.
this man not have admitted
that he was no longer capable
of personally caring for his wife
and turned for others to help?
We cannot know, and we cannot judge:
Judgment is Yours alone to make.
the situation, I beg you, please,
forgive him, and take him with his beloved
wife into Your eternal care.
ask, You, too, my Creator, to spare me
if possible from a terrible test like this,
but if I must be tested, please give
me the courage, and the fortitude,
and the strength to prevail in the knowledge
that I am Yours, and that You
will never desert me, nor burden me
with anything that we together, You and
this I pray to You in trust, dear Lord,