I have an unquenchable
desire to know
that there is more to existence
than these brief years we have on earth...
I believe! Help Thou my unbelief!
The years are fleeting.
The older I get, the faster the days race by.
When I was a child of six, the time between Christmases
was an eternity. Of course,
at that time, a year was a sixth of my life.
is an 80th.
So there is an inevitably frightening
rush now toward the end, a dauntless autumn swiftness,
with leaves-falling dead around me, but still with a luminous
hope and a firm conviction that the end is not a final
conclusion but a new pearly-dew sun-rising morning in
Your great shining dawn.
Friends and acquaintances of mine make sudden unannounced
exits, or suffer long debilitating final ends. Please,
God, when my time comes, as it must, let me slip away
easily and quickly if I may.
Dear Lord, the playwright Tennessee Williams,
whom You gifted with a beautiful poetic voice
as well as arresting insights,
put eternity this way in his play
are the moments when we look
ourselves and ask with
which never is lost altogether:
"Can this be all? Is there nothing more?
what the glittering wheels
of the heavens turn for?"
also invokes the starry skies. Edmond Rostand gives his
title character Cyrano de Bergerac,
a man with an enormous nose,
a cosmic concluding speech, in which he confronts death:
Even now my feet have turned to stone.
My hands are heavy as lead.
But since Death comes I'll meet him standing. And with
sword in hand!
I see him!
He, the noseless one,
dares to mock my nose! How insolent!
[Cyrano raises his sword, against
You say it's useless. That I know.
But who fights believing
that every battle will be a success?
I fought for lost causes
and fruitless quests!
You there! I see you!
Thousands of you! All enemies of mine,
I know you now!
Ah! There's Falsehood!
[He cleaves the air with his
[He slashes out.]
Will I surrender? Strike a compromise? Never!
And there you are, Folly!
I know you'll be the one to take me down,
at last. But I'll fall fighting,
passes in the air, and stops, breathless.]
You've stripped me of the laurel
and the rose! Of glory and love! Take it all!
But when tonight I enter
upon the broad blue threshold of God's house
one thing I'll have, unstained, unsullied
and unbroken, as I bow before the throne
in low salute...
forward, his sword raised. It falls from his hand. He
staggers and falls back.]
And that is... my... white... plume.
Dear Father, God, please let me
always hold to my expectation,
to my firm belief that "this is not all..."
my final hour comes, please grant me courage, faith and
bravery to face the end
of this mortal life.
Let my "white
plume" be not just my honor
but my soul, steel-strong, forged in the fire
of life's challenges, cleansed
by the Blood of the Sacrificial Lamb of God.
welcome me then, unworthy as I am,
on the broad blue threshold of heaven,
into eternal life in perpetual union
with You, my only Hope, my only Savior,
my only God,
2011 - Donn B. Murphy
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